2018 started amazingly well. The pieces of the puzzles were finally coming together. My wishes were coming true. I experienced many miracles. I was on cloud 9 and could not wait for the months to come to see and taste what the Lord had in store for me. "Finally my break through", i told myself, "Everything was right. 2018 is my year."

And then the storm came in June, and everything turned upside down. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I faced many challenges. I was angry and came to the conclusion that 2018 was after all, not my year.
I kept resisting and hoping for better days but nothing changed. I found myself at my lowest point as everything was crumbling. I would drive to church and sleep in my car because i was too annoyed to murmur anything to God, yet Church remained my safest place. The first day i slept in the car from 3 to 7pm and drove back home. The same happened the 2nd and 3rd day. On the 4th day i started to pray... NO... not true. I started complaining to God. In the middle of my complaints i became still and listened and oh boy i now knew that Mrs perfect was not that perfect. All my flaws were coming before my eyes. In an interesting manner, i begun to appreciate how blessed i was. It is incredible how blinded we become when we are angry. I am immensely blessed. God has lifted me up in ways i could have never imagined. The biggest realization was when He revealed to me that having difficulties in life does not equate to a bad year and that a good year is not one without challenges.

A bad year is a year without God. As long as you have God by your side then it is never a bad year. His faithfulness, grace and mercy endure forever. Challenges grow us. Challenges prepare us for greater times ahead. Challenges is a promotion. Challenges prove our love and test our faith. Challenges is God's way of loving us.
1 Peter 4:12-13 tells us "Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed."

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The year is ending well. I was able, amidst all the chaos, to finally undertake some overdue projects. I had planned to start them off in 2013 and did absolutely nothing. October 2018, is when i finally took that leap of faith. He needed to push me....

When you experience challenges in 2019, (because you certainly will), you must learn to choose His will over yours. Every single night, begin to reflect on the positive things that happened during the day. These could be as "meaningless" as the ability to breath, see, talk and walk because every day we fight a battle we do not see. Continue to commit to Him and trust Him with all your heart, mind and soul. Romans 12:12 tells us to rejoice in hope; patient in tribulation ; continuing instant in prayer". Happy holidays!